My heart is aching and I don't know why. I have a headache from all the confusion in my head, I just hate it. Why am I not normal? Why do I seem to run from every good guy that comes my way? Why am I pulling away? I feel as if I can't fall in love, which is awful, because it seems like the most amazing thing on earth; even better than chocolate.
Theres this boy, and he is simply amazing. He is the sweetest and I'm falling hard, or so I thought. It's like my head and heart are at war with one another.. My heart says, "I like him. I like him a lot, don't you feel the pounding in your chest?" and then my head says, "Oh, no. You're getting too close.. Here, let me point out all the little things that will push you away." This is what happens to me every time, I swear. That is the exact reason why it scares me, it makes me think that I cannot fall in love for real. I ruin all these great things with my stupidity and fears.
Heart, why can't you be normal and just let yourself fall? Take down that wall, and fall. Please.
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Oh Jacy, Jacy. Pray. That's what I say about this. And maybe it isn't right because maybe you're not supposed to fall in love before a mission, ya know? Or maybe you are, and you just need to let loose for a bit. Either way, pray because Heavenly Father will always help. He loves you so much and he wants you to be so happy. (:
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