Part of Me:

I love writing. I may not be very good at it, but it will always be something that I enjoy. I have been writing stories, and my thoughts down ever since I was little. Some of the stories that  I wrote are pretty funny to read now, and reading them just showed me how much I love writing and how much I want it in my life. There is just something about writing or typing out your thoughts, your fantasies, your world out; it brings a sort of peace and joy.
A quote from my favorite show, One Tree Hill, says: : "That's what writers do. We put pen to paper in times of devastating tragedy. We just try to make sense of it. Maybe we'll find clarity in some of those words. Maybe we'll find peace."
When I am having a bad day, I write or I sing. It's what I do, it releases some of the pain and helps me get out what needs to be let out. I can either write about what I am going through, or sing it out. There is just an emotion and a feeling there that is personal and meant for me, it is a part of me.

Twenty Years:

Time just seems to be creeping in, it always surprises me by how fast time actually goes. I am going to be Twenty years old on Wednesday. I have been alive for twenty years, and honestly, what have I done with my life? I have lived a mediocre life so far, and I'm not really okay with that. It annoys me constantly and I stay up nights obsessing over it. I need some more adventure in my life and I need to stop settling for mediocre things. I need to make this life the best that I can, I know Ill make many mistakes along the way, but I want my life to be one where I can look back and be satisfied with what I did with it. I don't want to look back with regret. So, cheers. Heres to another year, another birthday, and the promise of tomorrow.

Heart and Head:

My heart is aching and I don't know why. I have a headache from all the confusion in my head, I just hate it. Why am I not normal? Why do I seem to run from every good guy that comes my way? Why am I pulling away? I feel as if I can't fall in love, which is awful, because it seems like the most amazing thing on earth; even better than chocolate.
Theres this boy, and he is simply amazing. He is the sweetest and I'm falling hard, or so I thought. It's like my head and heart are at war with one another.. My heart says, "I like him. I like him a lot, don't you feel the pounding in your chest?" and then my head says, "Oh, no. You're getting too close.. Here, let me point out all the little things that will push you away." This is what happens to me every time, I swear. That is the exact reason why it scares me, it makes me think that I cannot fall in love for real. I ruin all these great things with my stupidity and fears.
Heart, why can't you be normal and just let yourself fall? Take down that wall, and fall. Please.