You see, I have a big mistake that has been weighing me down for about four months.. One of the biggest mistakes of my life and I just can't seem to fix it. I honestly do think that I am the stupidest girl alive. :P
Heres my HUGE mistake: I broke up with the best guy in the world whom I am in love with and he actually loved me. Yeah, now you think I'm an idiot, right? Well, its true! Biggest idiot RIGHT HERE. <--
Heres the thing though.. Sometimes he can be a huge jerk to me, but then he will look at me with his green eyes and I just can't help but love the guy.. I'm a sucker, I know.. I'm gonna be a bad mother. Ha ha! So, I have these back and forth feelings all the time, but mostly, I have the empty, alone, depressed feeling, Yeah, that one sucks. First love never fades away.. (I'm really hoping he doesn't read this.. I doubt he goes on my blog.. Ha ha) Have any of you made that mistake before? What did you do? How did you handle it? I just don't understand why tons of people can get together after cheating, messy break-ups, and everything and I can't. -.- Can things really go back to the way they were? I guess I will just have to be patient and keep waiting for something to happen.. Well, actually fighting for what I want and seeing if I get a result. :) (Thats the spirit!)
i feel like everything happens for a reason though, and I think that this has made us both stronger as individuals and has actually made us better friends and made our relationship stronger. :) So, just remember, whatever you are going through, everything happens for a reason.
I really don't know what to do.. I've fought for this kid more then I have anything.. Its just exhausting. I'm going to keep fighting though. I just feel like its something worth fighting for. "A GIRL WORTH FIGHTING FOR!" :D Mulan.. Yeah.. Well, now I think that I am off to bed to think some more about my mistake.. I should have ended on a better note.. Don't give up on love! <3
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"Giving up doesn't always mean you are weak; sometimes it means that you are strong enough to let go."
I feel like this quote describes what you're talking about. (:
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