I just feel like getting everything that I am thinking about out of me. I have so many people that I love and trust to talk to, but some things I feel pathetic talking to people about. You know?
During this first week of school, I've just haven't felt beautiful. Not at all. Maybe it's because I don't have my blonde hair, I feel pretty with my blonde hair. it's just sad, I feel like. That I just don't feel beautiful. I miss having that one special guy who makes me feel so beautiful, and it's so sad that I am depending on guys for that. I should feel beautiful and confident without them and on my own. Yeah, my feminist side and my romantic side fight a lot.. I need to work on feeling beautiful and special without a guy, it's just hard sometimes when you just feel so alone; even though I have so many amazing people surrounding me.
